missing ... -ness ~~

I miss him....

Even if my parents and my koko dun allow mii to be with him...
but ... it doesn't stop the feelings i have for him...
been together so long d.... as if not allowing me being with him will stop the feeling i have for him straight away.
 i miss his comfort hugs... i miss his voice.... i miss talking to him... his accompaniment...
people who knows mii and him ... knows how much we love each other.
but people who doesn't know mii and him... onli know one side..
would usually ask...
" what if he/she cheats on u "
wel.. its all about trust ~ . this relationship we had/have.... always got trust . its one of the main thing lor ~

People say.. [ when u're in love.. u mature faster ] ... wel... it is reallii acutally truue lor i guess....
being with him... i actually mature more and even faster.
Comparing from the begining when i was with him .............

( we didn't realli like each other then ... was just playing around.. didn't meant anything...  until we started to fall for each other. which was NOT planed =x )

anyways... comparing from the begining when i was with him...and  2 years ago / last year....i was damn immature.. and so was he...
... looking back ...  he realize that i've change so much.. more matture in thinking .. not that childish animore. lol...  ( i realize it too...i dun think it is just bcuz  my age... but also bcuz being with him ... )
BUT ~ of cuz i'lll stilll be IMMATURE.. just for fun.. DUH~ ..

it runs in mii and my brothers ;p. x] 

 Of cuz i'll be mature when i neeed tooo =]

anyways... we've been through so much.... and i mean SO MUCH  ~ ... both done many stupid things... hurting the oposite... but.. then... as alll of it passs.... both grew stronger =]...

we've said this to each other number of times...

"the past is the past..."

the sweeet memories willl of cuz keep it in our heart..

and the bitter memories will forget...

yup.... so.. whatever happeneds in the past.. even if it made miii had no face to face him.... i'm still gonna move on.. bcuz watever stupid things i've done... it would hurt him more... and if he can forgive mii..  then i'll try my best to forget about the past and move on and of cuz not repeat my mistakes =x.

ever since we've been tgt... watever i've done wrong or he has done wrong.. it still doesn't stop him/mii loving mii/him and wanting to be together with him/mii....even when i saii " lets break up " ( WORSE 3 words ever for him and mii to hear/say ) 

i duno..how to describe it. the feeelings i have for him....

don't ask miii WHY I LOVE HIM..  because.. i duno how to answer you....

i just do...i just love him .. everything of him...  even if he make my tears fall... i still love him..

bcuz...if i dun love him.. my tears wouldn't fall.....

all the memories he has given mii..... will always remian in my heart.... ~~

even if those that are bitter ...  if i can't forget them.. i'll just keep them..

why?

becuase.. someone ones said to me

" bcuz u are close with them.... u will onli fight with them  "

bcuz u care for them... that's why ur heart hurts for them...

bcuz u love them... thats why ur heart hurts for them....

or else.. why would u give a damn in the 1st place? =]

if u get wat i mean =D~

Ms. Alena knows how i feel.. bcuz.. in some way.. some how... mii and her are similiar. not ALL totaly.. but just some way..some how.. we are .....

okie.. its 1 am. think i shud better sleeep.. or else.. people might get angry at mii =x.. plus i dun feeel welll ..( hope i dun get sick. X___X )   niiites~~~ ! 

❥
-ms.grace