♥16/4/2010♥

Yesterday..had a spesh ( specialist maths) and methods maths sac(exam).

** spesh (very hard maths)= just a test which doesn't count into my VCE score.**
** methods( normall maths ) = is 20/30% count into my VCE score. **

VERY SAD~ i think i did better in my spesh than my methods which is very bad T_T~

i needa get 96-97% for my VCE to get into Melbourne Unniversity T_T!

my tuition teacher said " when people send in thier CV(resume) to the high class company businese place, the company will seperates all the university. they will keep and go through the Melbourne and Monsh university students CVs AND DUMP the rest into the RUBBISH BIN. "

I wanna go to Monsh. but parents wants mii to go to Melbourne Unniverisity. But i guess going to Melbourne is gud. cuz over seas people knows Melbourne Unniversity wheras Monsh is not that popular.

Anyways back to the Maths Sac. 2 other classes did too.. and one of the classes got to come out of the sac.. went to assembly and went back in to continue the sac. and people went back in with answsers!!! which i found out last nite from my friend..THAT IS SO NOT FAIR. and dun freaing tell me that " life is not fair" well.. me and my friend is going to make it FAIR. if the teacher doesn't do anything then i'll get my parents to be invlove in this and go talk to the teacher or the princicpal even. because this sac is very very important and they can't do that.

I swear .. my school is a hole. damn bullshitting this school.

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After that has happen... at assembly.. teacher handed out the form for our year 12 prom.

and eveyrone was tlaking about it at lunch... NO ONE IS BRINGING A PARTNER apparently.

and Winiie made miii ask Joel last term. so damn bullshitting. i duno whether to still bring him anot. freaking helll... so i ask winiie if i shud or not. but she's like " up to you" .. STRESSSING...not helping at all.. as if studiyng isn't stressing enough... i knew i shouldn't ask him that freaking earli. but noo~~ .. NO ONE LISTENS TO ME. and i duno WHY THE FREAK i listen to winiie. and now.. if i dun bring him.. WTH am i going to tell him? " oh i dun wann u to come animore cuz no one is bringing a partner" or " oh.. cuz it'll just be akward u duno anione there and the after party we're going to a hotel to stay over.. and everything will just be akward".. SHIT THIS~~.!!! pissing myself.. grrrr!!!! duno WTH to do! can i just like not care about this.. freaking hell. dun feel like going to prom animore..=.=

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Above all that.. yesterday...16/4/2010 ♥ was our 5 years 1 month anniversary.. heehee~ so long rite... people ask how can we be tgt that long.. i duno.. we just do... =x.

time passes very fast you kno... with just a snap of ur finger.. its 5 years already.

long distance relationship..

How it work out? aren't i worriiied?

man. people ask my bf the same quesiton too. you just have to have trust. if he doesn't love me..why bother being with miii for 5 years. and he wouldn't even care to let mii meet his parents.. so.. does he really love me? wel.. i dun really care what people think. all i kno is that i love him and he loves me. thats fine.

Do i have doubts sometimes?

.. i wun lie.. i admit i do have doubts. but isn't that normall @_@~ and we are having a long distance relationship .but i take a risk . so what if i have a long distance relationship with him n he finds another girl.. the worse is .. ok fine break up. he is the one who lose mii NOT i lose him. and then life just moves on.

yes OF CUZ I'll CRY my eyes out. OF CUZ i'll be freakiing sad. and of cuz i dun wanna lose him. but then if he finds another girl or i find another boy.. then.. wel.. mayb we weren't meant to be.

Wouldn't that be a waste of 5 years not getting with other guys?

well... but the truth is i dun really want that many bf. i means what the point of having that many bf? to show off telling people how many exs you got?

you or the oposite just gets hurt in the end so whats the point.

if i go into a relationship... i prefer it to last a long time. i prefer just going with the one where u will stay with him ur whole life. i'm just that kinda girl. if u understand. i dun reali know how to explain =x

anyways... thats all for today lar~~ gonna go to bed ler... tmr got church to go =x x_x.

-bbear.s2