Crystal Memory

where do i start?

mm. mummy came back from m'sia last week and brought this along.

i left this back in my aunt house the last trip becuse out suitcases were full and couldnt bring it along.

when i open the box... i pull it out...

i just had all the flashbacks with *him. throughout my last whole trip back in m'sia..

we were choosing a crystal ball and tot this one's song sounded nice...

anyways.. i played it.. and i couldn't figure out wat was the song name..

dad came in and i ask.. daddy told miii the song name is " memory "

it then stroke miii that.. we picked the right song.

i don't kno how to explain i mean by " the right song "

Being in love is never easy....

We've been together so long .. that.. .... sometimes...

i feeel that "  i miss you and i love you" these words are just words that we put at every end of our sms.

so afraid..that ....

that feeling between us would fade.... i don't even want it to fade.. not even 1 % of it...

i just realllly want you to know that every time i say  " i miss you and i love you " i really really mean it..

till the extend where.. even though we are apart...

 my heartts just bleeeeds bcuz i wanna put it in action but i can't..

i smile because of you..

and

i cry because of you...

i kno you don't like mi shedding my tears..

but  if i don't shed my tears for you. who then should i shed it for?

also

i'm jelous because i love you

love is complicated...

is wat everyone says...

but.. because of you..

you make our love so simple.

yes.. there's up and down....

and there's times where i just i wanna give up... 

but because of you..

we stayed strong together .

Why do i love you?

after 5 years..

now i understand...

you don't have to have a reason to love someone...

just loving someone for who they are... 

and just having that feeling for that person...

is enough of a reason...

and i don't care what people say

or think....

i love him for who he is...

 i'm just glad.. that.. He loves me. and that he is mine.

bcuz.. if i wasn't with him.. i would have shed even more tears from heart broken for other boys...

but i'm glad.. that i'm only shedding my tears for him..

love.

-ms.grace  

Dresses ~

Since my prom is coming up in 2 weeeks and Nana previous post was about wedding and showed so many dresses....i'll show u 2 prettty dresses i like ... Katherine ( kitty ) showed mii the link.. there are quite number of prettty dresses in that link..

 sadly is in america and not in aus T_T =.= "

simple and nice.

 it's under the category of "bridesmaid dresses"

the back. hot / sexy ;p

pretty dress ~

hehe.. so here's the link ~ . check it out ^^ ~

http://www.prompartydress.com/top.php?lang=en

love.

-ms.grace

I hear Church Bells Ringing . . ♥

Hearing the news today totally Cheered me up . . I feel so Happy for them. . ♥

The Story of B &G from a friend. (p/s : B&G reminds me of aunty Bee and Uncle Gerarld.but not their story :p)

B & G met Through the internet. So internet was their "CUPID" ? hhas . . They've been together a long time and planned to meet up. On that day, I was there with G.G was SO SO SO excited and she kept complaining about butterflies in her tummy and when they met both of them were so SHY! ! ! hhhhhas! both of them heads down, B talking so softly that only G could hear and G would blush and giggle. Even thought their meeting time was short and they dont always get to meet up that time,They maintained this Long Distanced relationship very well. B was a loyal and good guy while G was a shy little girl. B was what G needed. G would always talk about B and i can say i know about them at least 90 % .As everything has their Ups and Downs, They had theirs too but they overcame it no matter what.Even though they had been separated for a moment but they still got back.

Happiness,Joy ,Sadness,Disappointments,Anger. . B&G had it all. They were together for years now and i really look at their relationship as a good thing. It's like they BOTH work so hard to maintain it. It doesn't matter whether things would or would not work out, but the thing is you BOTH were working hard TOGETHER. Cherish all the times you two could have,all the ups and downed you both encountered,All the obstacles you both passes, Cherish each other and never take each other for Granted. There are so many people in the world,So many friends you Both have but Both of you still chose each other after these years. Always REMEMBER the reason you both chose each other.

The News that i Made me feel so happy for them is that B PROPOSED TO G. Omg! 'm SO happy for them! 'm Happy that my best friend G found a good guy who is willing to by her side every moment no matter what,Not letting her to be alone. Even though its a bit early for marriage but its just an engagement. They could have their marriage when they're older and ready, But for now They could plan for their marriage at the moment. How sweet. 'm So truly happy for Them Both! I pray that they'll go on well and overcome more obstacles ahead of them. Marriage isnt an easy thing but i know and can be sure that B would plan it out nicely, 'm sure he would save up and get the basics. Maybe B would be confused by my word Basics? Basics= 1st- a Stable Job, 2nd - A house,3rd a heart to love and cherish my Best friend FOREVER no matter in whatever conditions. B is a good guy and 'm sure he'll do that for her. i TRUST him to do that! *giving B a little pressure* :p . .

Remember back in the old days when we had our sleepovers, we talked about our wedding. LMAO! it wasn't really planning good things about it for example what cake we would have,what gown,what location~ etc etc etc . Instead it was how to SABOTAGE each others wedding. We promised When it was time to exchange Vows, we would Barged in Shouting i object and kidnap the bride. ROFL! but now, i wouldn't barged in and make you run with me, I'll let You run with Him now. He's a good guy for you and he could give you happiness. Having positive happiness is the main point of life and being with someone you love who loves you back and can give you happiness is a very Fortunate thing.


Still as a True best friend, i'll always be by your side. Not only B Loves you but Me too. If B bullies you i'll show him no mercy and you can always come to me. But B wouldnt bully you . Its Just a FYI to let you know you still have me .:p . . Dont forget about me as i wouldn't forget about You. I know you wouldnt forget about me ,So please do remember to save up for an air ticket for me to attend your wedding if its in AUS . Buek :p

Before ending this post. . i wanna make G Laugh and a lil Crazy . . Here it comes. . :p

G's likings . . 

Cute.

Your kind of Pink. 

Sweet.

How about hot pink? :p

I dont know how to explain this :p

and here's are some things more of my likings that i'll choose for G, G will be interested too :p

Classic Yet Sweet.

Elegant with Swarovski Crystals.Loves.


Classy Princess Taste.


Something Cute :)

A taste of FAIRYTALE! ♥

Oops! i guess 'm also excited for your wedding. :P

Oh yea!Almost forgot!

 

The Car! hhhhas! just joking!but its kinda cute tho :p

Dear G, i'll help you choose your dress but for the shoe part i'll leave it to B. As he'll be the one walking with you in your life from that day on.We'll always be Best Friends Forever. ♥

TO THE BearBear Couple. ♥

You Both have my Wishes and Blessings. Cherish the moments you both have together and most importantly CHERISH EACH OTHER.

 PROMISES. LOVE. CHERISH. FOREVER.

With Loves,
alena . . ♥

Brothers ~ ❥

I didn't get to telll about my koko's 21st b'dai.. but.. conclusion over the preparing the fooood for 60-70 people.. for 2-3 days....and then. mii being the waitress and welcoming people in and sometimes camera girl... the party was great ^x^ ~!

i cut my hand soooo deeep that i didn't even realize until RIGHT BFORE the party starts =x  funny thing was i was wondering where was the cut bcuz my finger was covered with blood. and without knowing i press the cut place. it didn't even hurt ... till the next 7 days =.=~

anyways.. this is photos of us....  hehe~

time fly so fast ... koko is already 21.. haiz ~ next thing you know. i'll b 21 too @_@ !!!!! 

koko ( top):: mii :: mark didi (right)

koko (left )  :: mii :: mark didi  (right)

love.

-ms.grace

Selfless. . ♥

Things that happens always have their good and bad. Nothing is totally good and nothing will be totally bad. It Just depends.

The Last Chance,
  Cherish every chances given as you wouldn't know when whether it would be the last. Don't wait till its too late and regret. When someone gives you another chance means they are putting hope on you and when you don't cherish it and treat it as garbage,that someone would get disappointed. Treat people like how you wanted to be treated and that is why you have to know how to love yourself before you love another. Remember how you want to be treated and think of you yourself stepping in the other person's shoes before you take actions on them.Feelings are easily hurt. Relationships are easily broken and hard to mend. There will be that Last chance and it depends on you yourself to cherish it or not. A person who loves you can give you unlimited chances when he/she is living, but there will still be that last one when he/she has to leave this world.

The Good and Bad,
  As i said everything has its good and bad it just depends on you to be optimistic to think positively or pessimistically thinking of the negatives. Your life Your choice of thinking. 

Recently Grandmama has been very weak. For the first time in the 18 years of her care, i see that shes old. I used to be proud to say i have a Young and healthy Grandmama. The woman who used to be so fierce and keeps on scolding and nagging.The woman who would walk to the market every morning without fail whether it was sunny or rainy just to buy us brunch.The woman who cooked us home cook dinner and let us felt family warmth. The woman who used to do the gardening,carrying packets of sand,moving heavy pots of plants. The woman who planted the mango tree and made it our childhood memory and chopped it down when it was too old.

I was taken cared by my Grandmama since young. I have both working parents, they had to work hard to earn a living as i wasn't born in a fortunate rich surrounding.So they had to send me to Grandmama's and be taken care of during the day and would visit me after they work.I stayed with Grandmama till Friday night,then my parents would take me home till Monday i would be back at Grandmama's place. Later on, my parents decided to move in with Grandmama and we stayed together. Grandmama would be the one who woke me up and dressed me for kindergarten. We would walk to kindergarten and as i was so pampered by her, She always have to stayed in class with me till a certain time. If she didn't stay with me for that certain of time, I would cry till the teachers called her back. I was like a little princess. After kindergarten she would walk me back home and sometimes even bring me along with her to sit the bus and go antique shopping . One year,when Chinese New year was near, she took me to sit the bus and we went to China town. It was my first time being in such a huge antique shop, She bought a Fortune cat for me as i keep saying i like the cat. Before we went back, we walked along the streets and she brought me to see toys.During that time, i remembered we both were attracted to the cute black monkey that keeps hitting the gong when you on it.Grandmama wanted to buy it for me but she did not have enough money.Even so,i did not complain but i enjoyed that moment. I also remembered my last day of English kindergarten, she dressed me as a princess with princess toys in my uniform. I was the only special looking one there. And when i changed to a Chinese kindergarten, Grandmama was also the one who walked me there. She would always be standing there with her umbrella when i finished class.

When i went to standard 1, Grandmama was still the one who dressed me up for school. Fed me before i left, I remembered she wouldnt let me go out of the house to the van that fetch me to school, when i did not finish my meal. After school, the maid would open the gates for me and i would run in to call her and see her cook dinner before i went to watch television. We would watch television while waiting for my parents,Aunty bee and Uncle Gerarld to come home and eat together. In my senior years of primary school,I became a little playful and i would climb over the gate when nobody heard me calling from outside to open the gate fer me.When i got in she would come out and scold me saying the gate is older than you it's gonna break and she scolded the favorite way of scolding " Later you fall down then you know only know death" . i had stubbornness and ignored,I continued climbing the gate till she always had to lift up the heavy gate (that i and my brother also cant lift up) to just lock the door.*guilty . .Then it was time for the new gate but this little monkey still climbed over the gate in her dress till she moved to her new house(no more gate to climb).*blush. The same scolding would never change that time too. Grandmama had another thing to scold me during my time in Form 1 too. It rained alot that year and i would play in the heavy rain, there was a period of time i came home all wet everyday. and the scolding would be " So wet! Still dont take a towel and bath ! Flu then you know! " hhhhas . miss those times. Grandmama's favourite past time was to "boil telephone porridge"  with her "chit chat kaki" in Hokkien. we wont know what she is talking about till one day dad asked us did we learn any hokkien from Grandmama? me and my little brother answered her two favorite words "dou si lo! " and "Jiak sai" hhhas . . we did not know what was the meaning till daddy explained. Rofl! I also remember Grandmama's set of fake teeth, it was me who accompanied her to the dentist to make them.She would sometimes forget to bring them out and she would laugh and showed us that she has no teeth.me and Darren would laugh with her.Grandmama was a strong woman,she would talk to me about things in her heart and how upset she was because my mother and uncle richard couldnt get along well.The fisrt and only time i saw Grandmama cried was when mami,Aunty bee and Uncle Richard argued. That was the first and only time.

Now for the first time in all these memories, i only see that my Grandmama grew old. She's been going in and out of the hospital non stop. That strong Superwoman looks so fragile now. Its like only her skin is wrapping her bones now.No more flesh. She cant even really walk on her own now. She survives by using a pacemaker now and She's going into the hospital later to have another surgery on Wednesday. Grandmama, we always are worried about you and hope you could fully recovered but i guess its just that you're getting old. Everytime i would pray that God wouldnt take you away from me and save you but when tonight as i passed by your room and saw you sleeping, i've changed my mind. From now on, I wouldnt be selfish and keep you just because i'm afraid of losing you. From now on i would pray that you wouldnt suffer and if it was your time to go, i pray that God would  at least just give us time to say our Goodbyes and i pray he'll take you up to heaven where you could rest in peace and stay happy having a reunion with grandpapa.

There are just too many memories as you were the who brought me up. There were the times you showed me your jewelries and let me dressed you up for dinners,taught me how to make bracelets, taught me how to sew and also how to tidy my bed.I remembered the little me had trouble folding the blanket on my own and we would fold it together. I remembered the times i slept with you in your room and the times you slept in mine. You would always pat my back gently when i couldnt sleep and i would give you a piece of mask when you couldnt sleep. When i was little and weak, you were always there to take care of me. That time when i was in the hospital you were the one carrying me sitting up straight letting me sleep on your chest while patting my back. But the best memories were the times when me and darren were scared of the loud thunder, We would race up and run into your arms. You would hug the two little cowards and put us to sleep by patting our backs.

Grandmama, you were the one who protected us and guide us and i'll always Love You.♥

Melt the snow. ~

Dear Ms. Nana.. i want to dedicate this song to you. imagine miii singing it literally. =]
Go to our play list and pick the song. " Melt the snow ".


But before that ....

Always remember ~

No matter what.. i'll be urs..

No matter what.. i'll be here for you..

No matter what.. i'll be ur handkerchief. because you can use mii again and a again.

No matter what.. i'll walk through all your pain, tears and joyfull moments with you.

No matter what.. i'll always love you

 

 

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"Melt The Snow"
 
 
Sometimes out my window

I notice that you've been crying over him
And I wonder why you just don't
Kick him to the curb
Instead of giving in


[Chorus]

You see love at first is summer time

That's when you think that everything's fine

No one ever thinks its gonna end

But when things go wrong and winter comes

You're gonna need to run to someone

Left alone you'll just freeze up again

But you should know

When it gets too cold

You're not alone

I'll melt the snow

Some nights I can hear you

Screaming on the phone over

something that he did

And I wonder what can I do

To make you throw him out

so you can let me in

[Chorus]

I'll melt the snow

Ill melt the snow [x6]

love.

-ms. grace.

the butterfly . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SON YO HONG QUAN AND MY AUNT YAU BEE HONG ! ! May all the best come to you both and live a great life ahead.

Who am i really kidding? As hard as i try , i can fool the world but not myself. This empty feeling it haunts. it doesn't kill the heart but tortures it.

did not want to wake today.Family lunch plan was to go Ishin Japanese Restaurant. Normally i would be excited but dad called me more than 3 times to wake but i didn't. All the Knocking,the sound of them banging my door calling for me normally makes me frustrated but i managed to ignore and endure it today. The news of going for a Japanese family meal did not make me excited no more. I stayed locked up in my room, hiding under the blanket that kept me warm on the outside but failed on the inner side. Waking up at 1630 on a Sunday, I feel so abnormal already.

Woke up, prepared for dinner and went belakong to have a Spicy Soup meal. I learn to grow up today. i poured Spicy soup and drank a bowl of spicy soup even though i couldn't take spicy.Surprisingly, i did it, i'm not afraid of Spiciness anymore. i forced myself to grow up a little today.

kept myself busy today,trying to escape the thought of "YOU" but failed a few times. Still i managed to force myself to cheer up. Looking on the bright side, knowing this is for the better.

It tears me apart when i chatted with "YOU". I really want to know in your heart am i really that mean? Do you think it's easy for me to stand my ground and be the bad guy? I try to avoid arguing with you as i want to be your easiest goodbye. To be frankly, you hurt me a lot even at this time you still hurt me. Its not easy for me to have the thought of letting go and its even harder for me to take actions and let it go. But to me you're like a butterfly. From the day you said i made you suffer, i chose to let you go because the one hurting wasn't me and it was you. I don't mind hurting myself, you yourself should know this clearly.I'm sorry i could not please or satisfy you.A butterfly was meant to fly and not for me to selfishly hold in my hand. If i did i would just hurt or even kill it. Instead when i let it fly, it shows me even how pretty it could be flying freely in the open blue sky under the sunlight. This way the butterfly would be happy and the same will go for me as well.If "YOU" asked me for 3 reasons why i am so "mean"  i would answer 1st i made you suffer, 2nd you couldn't prove to me we could go for the better and lastly 3 simple yet the most meaningful words - i Love YOU.

I Promised myself to stay strong and i thank all my friends that were concerned about me. Cheering me up trying to make me smile. I'm Sorry to Worry you. I will try as hard as i could to keep my smile on my face and be a strong lady and not only on the outer but on the inner but I guess there will always still be that little girl trapped inside of me. I'll give it time. I came across Something meaningful at one of my friend's profile today,it says : "其实喜欢和爱一个人是种很容易很简单的事．．但要你学会放手和放弃一个人．这真的替却很不是件容易的事．．所以喜欢或爱一个人都好．．只要你是真心喜欢和爱她／他的．．这已足够了．．不要只因为少少的问题．就把事情弄得那么严重．就那么得容易提出分手这两个字．．你要说“分手”之前．你真的有好好的把事情弄清楚吗？．．你知道说了后。那后果有多严重吗？．．你们真的有好好考绿过．当初你们那么坚持要在一起．那份勇气和真爱．．就代表你们真的互相喜欢／爱对方．无论发生什么事情或遇到什么问挫折／困难．．你们都会坚持到底．．那当初的坚持和承若都去了那？．难道真的就为了少少的事情就要提出“分手”吗？．．♥真心＝喜欢＝爱情＝付出＝坚持＝勇敢＝勇气＝承若＝［真爱］．．．♥♥．❤❤❤"

My Friend also reminded me of a something meaningful and here it is.. 

To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't have feelings of anger, jealousy nor regret. Letting go isn't winning or losing, not about pride, not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. It isn't about loss and it's not defeat. To let go is to CHERISH memories, to overcome them and move on, accepting and having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up.♥

i'm sorry i can't be the superwoman you want me to be.

iloveyou • 爱

Its been awhile since i've blog. sorry lor~ gota excuse mii... beeen having alot of sacs. and exams are coming up in 2 weeks time. =x

Anyways... i'm gonna write a lyrics from a song i like...  its by " Steward Mac - i love you " 

originally by " David Tao - 爱,很简单 ".

it is an english version.

i hope you like it too.

you can listen to the song while reading it. so that it wouldn't be so "boring"

just scrolll allll the waaaayyy down and pick it in the playlist =]

the reason why i wanna write this is becuz..

Even though we are apart...

I wanna dedicate this song ..

To the One i LOVE❤. Who will always be in my heart❤ .

The only one who always understands me.

And love me for who i am;

for the " INNER " me and not the " OUTER " me.  

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I Love You

There was once a broken man

Who walked a lonely road

And gave up all his dreams

And I was once this broken man

Who stared into the sun

And just refused to see

I was the lost amongst the clouds that wouldn't fade?

I was looking for an answer

I was searching but I didn't take the time

I was down and out and feeling so afraid

I love you

The way that you turned me round

And chased away my blues
I love you
The way you changed my world

When I'm with you

Love may come and love may go

And now its here to stay
Forever and a day (With you)
And when I see you smile
I fall into your eyes
Don't ever fade away

I need you here to make

The dark clouds drift away

And to make the mornings bright again

I'm right here for you

There's nothing more to say

I'm just happy that you're mine

I'm here to stay

I love you

The way that you turned me round

And chased away my blues

I love you (yes i do)

The way that you changed my world

When I'm with you

It doesn't matter where you're from or where we're going

As long as you're with me all the way

And the night's no longer lonely

I'm waking up to find a brighter day

I love you yes i do

The way that you turn me round

And chased away my blues

I love you

The way that you changed my world

When I'm with you

i miss you

ps. the heart shape.. is my little brother made it de.. with tomato sauce =x @@.

the fower.. is taken outside my house. so prettty horr~.

love.

-ms. grace

Setting an Aim & starting to earn it.

To get me out of this condition i guess i'll start by setting aims for myself and take actions on it.
 To-do List for the long term!
1.earn to buy a house!
2.Love myself by buying myself a diamond ring.
3.Save up to travel around the world.

To-do list for the instant start!
1. Hold myself and be sure not to shatter into pieces
2.Stay strong and build an attitude
3.Love myself !

GOSH! ! talking about loving myself , I SO SO SO wanna get myself a Thomas Sabo Charm bracelet. Ms.Grace will Love it too . . Show you some pics . So adorable . Meaningful too . Wonder why didnt me and Grace made one last time . *pout

MS.GRACE! Look at this!

i guess you would have known this is my type of bracelet.chain type.d:

♥

 

 

 watch also not bad right? :p

 

Look at the charms now.

isn't this just adorable? ♥

 

and just for 

Ms. Grace. .♥



















 











    and for Me. .♥

 Hope Ms. Grace likes it too because i ♥ it . . Check out http://www.silvergallery.com/thomassabocharms/index.html?CR=251&RL=0. 

 

   Loves.

You were my Lucky Star. ♥

Deteirmnation.♥

  

   

Aim for the Stars.Even if you fall,you'll fall among the clouds.♥