♥16/4/2010♥

Yesterday..had a spesh ( specialist maths) and methods maths sac(exam).

** spesh (very hard maths)= just a test which doesn't count into my VCE score.**
** methods( normall maths ) = is 20/30% count into my VCE score. **

VERY SAD~ i think i did better in my spesh than my methods which is very bad T_T~

i needa get 96-97% for my VCE to get into Melbourne Unniversity T_T!

my tuition teacher said " when people send in thier CV(resume) to the high class company businese place, the company will seperates all the university. they will keep and go through the Melbourne and Monsh university students CVs AND DUMP the rest into the RUBBISH BIN. "

I wanna go to Monsh. but parents wants mii to go to Melbourne Unniverisity. But i guess going to Melbourne is gud. cuz over seas people knows Melbourne Unniversity wheras Monsh is not that popular.

Anyways back to the Maths Sac. 2 other classes did too.. and one of the classes got to come out of the sac.. went to assembly and went back in to continue the sac. and people went back in with answsers!!! which i found out last nite from my friend..THAT IS SO NOT FAIR. and dun freaing tell me that " life is not fair" well.. me and my friend is going to make it FAIR. if the teacher doesn't do anything then i'll get my parents to be invlove in this and go talk to the teacher or the princicpal even. because this sac is very very important and they can't do that.

I swear .. my school is a hole. damn bullshitting this school.

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After that has happen... at assembly.. teacher handed out the form for our year 12 prom.

and eveyrone was tlaking about it at lunch... NO ONE IS BRINGING A PARTNER apparently.

and Winiie made miii ask Joel last term. so damn bullshitting. i duno whether to still bring him anot. freaking helll... so i ask winiie if i shud or not. but she's like " up to you" .. STRESSSING...not helping at all.. as if studiyng isn't stressing enough... i knew i shouldn't ask him that freaking earli. but noo~~ .. NO ONE LISTENS TO ME. and i duno WHY THE FREAK i listen to winiie. and now.. if i dun bring him.. WTH am i going to tell him? " oh i dun wann u to come animore cuz no one is bringing a partner" or " oh.. cuz it'll just be akward u duno anione there and the after party we're going to a hotel to stay over.. and everything will just be akward".. SHIT THIS~~.!!! pissing myself.. grrrr!!!! duno WTH to do! can i just like not care about this.. freaking hell. dun feel like going to prom animore..=.=

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Above all that.. yesterday...16/4/2010 ♥ was our 5 years 1 month anniversary.. heehee~ so long rite... people ask how can we be tgt that long.. i duno.. we just do... =x.

time passes very fast you kno... with just a snap of ur finger.. its 5 years already.

long distance relationship..

How it work out? aren't i worriiied?

man. people ask my bf the same quesiton too. you just have to have trust. if he doesn't love me..why bother being with miii for 5 years. and he wouldn't even care to let mii meet his parents.. so.. does he really love me? wel.. i dun really care what people think. all i kno is that i love him and he loves me. thats fine.

Do i have doubts sometimes?

.. i wun lie.. i admit i do have doubts. but isn't that normall @_@~ and we are having a long distance relationship .but i take a risk . so what if i have a long distance relationship with him n he finds another girl.. the worse is .. ok fine break up. he is the one who lose mii NOT i lose him. and then life just moves on.

yes OF CUZ I'll CRY my eyes out. OF CUZ i'll be freakiing sad. and of cuz i dun wanna lose him. but then if he finds another girl or i find another boy.. then.. wel.. mayb we weren't meant to be.

Wouldn't that be a waste of 5 years not getting with other guys?

well... but the truth is i dun really want that many bf. i means what the point of having that many bf? to show off telling people how many exs you got?

you or the oposite just gets hurt in the end so whats the point.

if i go into a relationship... i prefer it to last a long time. i prefer just going with the one where u will stay with him ur whole life. i'm just that kinda girl. if u understand. i dun reali know how to explain =x

anyways... thats all for today lar~~ gonna go to bed ler... tmr got church to go =x x_x.

-bbear.s2

Blink of an eye.

Heiii~~~ 2 weeeks of sch holidaiiis GONE.. just a blink of an eye and it goes by you that fast..

i went to Planet Shaker's Conference from tuesday - friday. PS is a christian church/ band. Thier songs are more for teeenagers i'll sayy, but adults goes to the conference too. its in the City so i had to wake up at 6.40 am since my brothers needed to use the bathrooom too and we had to catch the train at 8 something. SOO TIRING ~ x_x anyways it starts at

*9-11am

*morning break
*11.45-1pm

*FREEE to do watever we want in the ct. lunch and dinner

*7-10pm

it was Gud. Bishop T.D Jakes preach on the the 3rd and 4th nite. man he is soooo gud. 1st time i actually stoood up and clap my hands and scream "yeah"/ " amen ". normaly i wouldn't. but his preaching is so gud. anyways its 2010!! praise and worship songs are different from back then. now is so much moree... modern @@ i duno how to explain. like last year PS did a song where it is something like techno? i duno wats it called. like u go clubbing u hear those kinda songs. it was guuuud~

some photos. got more but lazy to upload;p ~

Will didi~ ❤ shared with him caramel ice blended the day b4 and greentea ice blended the next day. ❤ss greentes ice blended!


see how tiring it is ;p [ joel ]

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CAKES~~

Saw these cakes with winiie. there's more but lazy to upload the rest ;p . i wanna be able to make these kinda cakes. i mean well i did for christmas in cooking class in form 4. but as siff i can remember the ingredients off my head. hoping one day i will be able to do pretty cakes like this and priiettter and better tasting cakes ~ ❤

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sweeet 16~ ❤

Nana remmeber these lollipops!?!?!? i'm sure u do. hehehe~ sure jia-le tooo x]~ kept them since my sweet 16th~ suppose to be 6 loolliipops but i ate one=x. soo sweeeet lerr~~ haha...put it on facebook just now and jia-le so surprise that it is still "alive" xD~ of cuz it'll be... i put them in my fridge =x... i dun mind eating the long ones but i bu she de eat the heart shape ones. x_x.

man.. blink of an eye.. and i'm 18 already.. no longer 16 x_x

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SHORT HAIR? or LONG?

what do you think? should i cut my hair short..

have been having long hair since~.... form 1 / form 2.. and i promised my self i'll never cut it short after the bad expereince of having short hair in primary school. due to stupid chinese school who says " if you wan to have long hair u need to dance ballet" i actually kinda regret stop dancing ballet. but meh.. i prefer mix hiphop modern kinda dance anyways.

i cut my hair last monday ~ just the front shorter layered. and my fringe. also thined my whole head and trim the bottom. hahaaa no one belives that i actualy cut my own hair but its true. cuz i'm scare of letting ppl here in aus to cut my hair. ( bad experience again)

and this time cutting my own hair is SUCCESSFULL~ hehe~

it really looks like i have short have.. everyone been commenting that i loook gud with short hair. making mii really wanna cut my hair short.

but then again.. haa~ i'll prob keep my long hair ❤ ;p

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i'm missing Him badly~ havent properly talk to him almost 2 weeks already T_T~

missing my nana tooo.. haiiz~ ❤

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thats the end ~~

gonna sleep.. tmr got sch =x

-bbear.s2