• miss-ish •• ❤ •

别来爱我。:)

2011-09-07T10:22:00.000-07:00

漂亮的夜晚你突然开了口

就连问号都特别的温柔

然后没人说话特别尴尬

和平时的我有点落差

太多的感受不知如何开口

你明明是我很好的朋友
是你不太明显还是我太笨

一直都没发觉其实我想说

别来爱我我没太多把握

一个人好好过何苦在爱情里沦落

其实我也想找一个寄托只是曾经的快乐

已经快被泪水覆没

别来爱我无法给你什么
我们都没有错要怪就怪我太执着

忘不了曾经最美的花火虽然早已经陨落

只要敢回忆还是最感动我

(这首歌，也许过于体贴了。今晚眼泪掉了，是时候要我放弃了吗？我多希望你明白。可能这次我真的对不起你，我道歉。也许我真的比较适合一个人。:) )

你真的不在乎吗？

2011-09-02T14:07:00.000-07:00

Maybe to you i deserve a better one, but have you ever thought that you were all i wanted?
You might be afraid to break my heart yet you never thought that others would break my heart too.
Wouldn't you make things better after you broke my heart?
How sure are you that others wouldn't break my heart and when they did, will they cheer me up after that like you always do?
Maybe its just me, maybe i'm the fool to have thought of this.
How do you want me to be with another when i fell for you?

The possibilities of goodbyes are high.
However, i will not stand in your way.
Even though if i did you wouldn't be happy.
So i'm letting you fly.

i guess i ain't that Lucky to have you Realize since the beginning i told myself i Wont Let Go, that you'd Always be My Baby and i would Fight For This Love. i hope you wouldn't tell me that there is nothing left to say but goodbye. However if you really want to leave, i hope you'll tell me before actions come. :)

no matter how hard i smile, it all remains black and white and only you could see me through. :)

you'll always be apart of me. :)

2011-09-01T22:34:00.000-07:00

We were as one babe,
For a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting,
That you would always be mine.

Now you want to be free,
So I'm letting you fly.
Cause I know in my heart babe,
Our love will never die.

I ain't gonna cry no,
And I won't beg you to stay.
If you're determined to leave girl,
I will not stand in your way.
But inevitably you'll be back again,
Cause ya know in your heart babe,
Our love will never end.

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder.
I know that, you'll be right back, babe.
baby believe me it's only a matter of time.

You'll always be a part of me,
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl don't you know you can't escape me.
darling cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on,
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're never gonna shake me,
darling cause you'll always be my my baby.

Always be my baby.

i ain't gonna cry because if you were to be a teardrop, i'm afraid that i'll lose you. :)

背影。

2011-08-15T12:14:00.000-07:00

“知道吗？我喜欢溜在陌生人身后看他们溜着的背影。朋友总是溜得太快，我追不上，我就是那悲哀的角色。”

A心想：“我不想与你当世上最熟悉的陌生人，虽当不了情人我也想当你好友，却知道其实真的有点难成真. . 但今天由你来当陌生人吧，我就当你。”

其实不知你有没有注意到，今天的你有个陌生人都在注意你背影了。:)

望着那背影，距离越来越远。明明就在眼前，但那距离感觉真的好远好远。

我试着追却一直都追不上，就如我是一条鱼追着在潜水的你。在水里我拼命地追上你，在你身边一直游来游去但你却视而不见，你也在此时上了岸，到了一个我永都到不了的地方。

曾近我拥抱着那背影，但此刻那背影离我越来越远了。无奈的是我只能眼睁睁看着她走，再也不能追上去那我永远去不了的地方。

再见了. =)

We were strangers on a crazy adventure. . . :)

2011-08-11T15:22:00.000-07:00

We were strangers

Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And...

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

butterflies. . :)

2011-08-11T15:09:00.000-07:00

i saw butterflies.
They were fluttering all over.
Such a beautiful sight it was.
An unexplainable feeling.
Not knowing where they all came from.
Maybe they appeared when You appeared.
They were dancing gracefully, so happily.

However not long after, they danced in sorrow.
The butterflies became confused, not knowing where to go.
With the cold winds, they struggled through the cold harsh night.

Then came the sunrise and all was even better.
The butterflies grew stronger and are much happier during the arrival of their destination after a rough tough road.
Proud of their persistence and determination. :)

my butterfly. :)

*hugss

2011-08-08T14:14:00.000-07:00

世上最幸福的事……
把你當抱枕　抱緊入睡
睜開眼第一個看到的是你 ♥

解脱 . :J

2011-08-07T13:41:00.000-07:00

爱永远都是难题　

失去分寸太容易　

谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼

有时候忘了珍惜　

伤害来的太无意　

有时爱太急　需要空间呼吸

让你哭泣对不起　为了爱承受委屈　

说过的承诺　其实还没忘记

愈是在乎的关系　愈是相处不容易　

伤害了你　我也失去勇气

走到感情关键时候　却握不住你的手　

还能有什么藉口　让爱再回头

多少的爱说不出口　

就让时间帮我说话　我一个人拼命挣扎

总比两个人一起难过还好吧

争吵愈狠痛愈深刻　

然后不断自责　

我们都忘了最初的快乐

拥抱越紧痛愈深刻　

谁不会舍不得　

现在我给的或许并不是你要的.

如果分离是唯一的解脱　最后的话我来说

如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过

就算过去的回忆太脆弱　连未来也没有我　

爱着你　仍是我的执着.

爱着你　唯一的解脱.

Smile and all is well. :)

2011-08-06T10:35:00.000-07:00

我不够漂亮　缺點很多
我脾氣很怪
喜歡與眾不同的東西
我愛逛街　買東西卻很挑剔
我喜歡雨天　卻受不了冷天

我還是那樣……
一邊走一邊回頭
一邊對愛情認真
一邊又偷偷想念
來來回回像是要把自己搞得精神分裂
可是我真的沒有辦法把回憶都拋棄了
那時候我還發誓
要和身邊的這個人永遠走下去
后來我對別人很認真的說
我想和你走很遠的路
再也沒有把永遠這樣的話說出口

那時候身邊的人這樣對我說
如果沒有你　我該怎麼辦？
后來分開了
他依舊過得很好
也沒缺少過笑容

諾言就是美麗的泡沫
說的人無心
聽的人把它刻成了傷口

我也想像個正常的女人有王子有白馬
我也想轟轟烈烈的愛毫無保留的付出
我也想每天跟他聊天到清晨也不覺得累

我不想像個刺蝟一樣無意傷害到愛我的人
我不想每天累到爬不起來還死撐硬抗的笑

我終究只是個女人
能有多堅強?

如果你因為錯過夕陽而哭泣
那恐怕你還會錯過漫天星光
愛..就大聲說出來
因為你不知道明天和意外哪個先來

我走得很慢..但從來都不會後退.

i Love Fish.

Never wait till its too late. .

2011-08-03T11:52:00.000-07:00

鱼说：你好美，我想我喜欢上了你..
水说：傻瓜，那仅仅是好感而已。
鱼说：真的，我不骗你..
水说：我不相信一见钟情..

日子一天天过去，鱼对水的感情也日趋笃厚..
鱼说：我喜欢和你在一起..
水说：那是因为你早已适应了我。
鱼说：我喜欢你的味道..
水说：那是因为你已习惯了我的存在。

几天后，水要继续远行..
鱼说：我已离不开你..
水说：过几天你就会忘了我的。
鱼说：不，我不会爱上除你以外的人..
水说：那是因为你还没有遇到除我以外的人。
鱼说：你是我的全部..
水说：你却不是我的唯一。

鱼说：你到底在追寻什么？
水说：只有海温暖的胸怀才是我的唯一。
鱼说：你难道不能为我而停留吗？
水说：不，一旦驻足，我就成了死水，就永远无法看到海的样子了。
鱼说：那我们能否并架齐驱？
水说：你永远无法追上我的脚步。
鱼说：你能否为我稍作等待？
水说：我只喜欢奔腾不息。

鱼说：无论如何，我都要陪你游向大海..
水说：别傻了，你只是一条淡水鱼。
鱼说：我不想让你一个人面对风浪..
水说：我不会因此而感激你。
鱼说：我不想博得你的感激，我只想和你在一起..
水说：你知道我不可能爱上你。
鱼说：但你不能剥夺我爱你的权利..
水说：你这样只会害了自己。

水和鱼经过了一条大河，鱼只剩下半条命..
鱼说：我不知道还能陪你多远了..
水说：回去吧，这样的日子不适合你。
鱼说：不，就算到了最后一秒，我都不会放弃..
水说：你傻得迷失了自己。
鱼说：那你能否试着接受一个傻瓜的爱呢？
水说：你明知道我的心早已被海占据。
鱼说：为什么？你总不能试着爱上我？
水说：我只相信，海才是我的唯一..

鱼和水经过了一条大江，鱼的生命只剩下四分之一..
鱼说：如果有一天我不在了，你会怎样？
水说：我会伤心，也会惋惜..
鱼说：那如果海不在了呢？
水说：我会心碎，也会随他死去..
鱼说：难道我们的朝夕相处还比不过一个幻影么？
水说：没有感情的相处只是多余的记忆..
鱼说：那海呢，你确信他会爱上你？
水说：他是我一生的梦，我不会放弃..

鱼无语，默默地陪水走完了剩下的距离..
终于，他们到了海边..
水看到了她的海，但她却不是海的唯一..

是啊，海有博大的胸怀，
博大到可以容纳百川在他怀里嬉戏，却无暇顾及水的存在。
水不愿做海身边众多佳丽之一，她决定离去..

这时，她想起了鱼，而鱼早已奄奄一息。
鱼说：我看到海了，他是那么英俊帅气，只有他才配得上你。
水说：但我却觉得他扑朔迷离。
鱼说：别担心，总有一天，海会发现你并爱上你。
水说：也许我真的错了。
鱼说：不会的，你那么爱海。
水说：曾经，也有一个人那么爱我，可我却忽略了。你说你爱我，说你要和我生生世世在一起..

鱼说：我不想给你一个兑现不了的承诺..
水说：你为什么不能自私一点？
鱼说：别这样，爱你是我的权利，爱我却不是你的义务..
水说：为什么我总是那么自私，那么固执？为什么我没有早点爱上你？
鱼说：别这样说，那样，我会走的很不安..

水说：为什么你总那么好，好到让我感到无地自容..
鱼说：忘了我吧，再去找一个值得你爱的人..
水说：你难道不是最值得我爱的人吗？
鱼说：别傻了，以后的日子，我不能陪你..
水说：我已错过太多的日子，我不能再错过你..
鱼说：别这样..
水说：我真的爱上你了..

鱼说：我都流泪了，你看见我幸福的泪了么？哦，我忘了，因为我在水里..
水说：不！我感受到了，因为现在，你在我心里..

鱼幸福地闭上了眼睛，在水的怀里..
听见自己心碎的声音.. ..

有人分担的忧愁不叫痛苦..
有人分享的快乐才叫幸福..

不要等到失去了.. 才来后悔 ..要珍惜拥有的..

Dreams & believes.

2011-08-01T14:28:00.000-07:00

Dreams and believes are just like kids hoping for Santa Clause to come during Christmas bringing them the gifts they wanted. Having faith and putting high hopes on it, everyone started as a kid and grew up after knowing Santa Clause wouldn't come/ there wasn't Santa.

The feeling of a kid being told that there wasn't Santa is a distraught feeling just like crushing one of their biggest dream and believes. And that feeling, we still have when we grew. Its the same feeling when our own dreams and believes becomes a fantasy.

Some were persistent and grew stronger. However some grew weaker, they tend to lose faith and hope, started not to believe nor dream. Some people have simple dreams and are easier to fulfill. Yet, some people would just dream big just for the sake of hope, just hoping for something to happen. In my personal opinion, i don't like to have too high hopes and prefer to just appreciate every little thing that is happening around.

As human nature, we tend to concentrate on the future and forget the things we have around us. Just like taking a long distance ride, we would only keep on asking "are we there yet?" and miss out the beautiful sceneries outside the windows. Why not just enjoy the ride before reaching there? :)

Stay Strong no matter what.

能不能把我的愿望还我 ?

it's been six months . .

2011-07-31T13:44:00.000-07:00

Life as usual has its up and downs, what matters the most is by making the best of it. And when things doesn't go right, at least you can Smile and Say "At least i've gave it a shot and tried my best. ☺ "

i've been having many kinds of dreams lately, dreams like walking in the park, been left alone, deaths etc. Yet the dream that hit me the hardest was the dream of last night's. i dreamt of a simple beautiful glass cup shattered into pieces right in front of my eyes. Looking at the shattering glass pieces i heard a sound of something that was breaking, not from the glass but from my heart. Then there was the sudden heartache.

Confused with the sudden heartache i entered scene two of the dream. i was driving, supposing to meet my friend and i saw her but i did not stop. i did not know why but i couldn't stop. Ended up being Lost. i tried not to be afraid, but the longer i drove the more fear i got in me. i couldn't find my way.

Woke up and it was 6a.m, with the feeling of heartache, confusions and lost. I tried to calm myself and say its just a dream but i really needed a hug. Cried in the showers but it wasn't any better. Eventually i got a hug and i would like to thank that person for it. Thank You. :)

Now before hitting the Zzzs . . i think that i'll have a sweet dream tonight because of Someone. *smilesss

Sweet Dreams with Love.

i'm L O S T. will you come take me by the hand & show me the way once more?

Say hello to goodbye.

2011-02-04T10:06:00.000-08:00

Hey there stranger, how you bin'
Feels like i'm standing on the outside looking in
at the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line

I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.

And this is how it has to be
Cuse' its a deadly combination, you and me
You know its undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go

And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net

Say hello to goodbye, cause its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.

Say hello to Goodbye.

i want a guy who is Loyal,Trustworthy, Loves me for who i am,

a guy who'll make me trust him and never wants me to worry but yet will be honest in everything.i wan a guy that sees me like 'm the only girl in the world. i want a guy to rely on, someone who i can trust him that he would carry me till the end.

如果这就是爱情

2011-02-03T09:31:00.000-08:00

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得
我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了何必再强忍

我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看着你走了

灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什么都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人
原来不是我

我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求
同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我

如果这不是结局
如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信
你就是唯一
如果你听到这里
如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情
我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情
本来就不公平
你不需要讲理
我可以离去
如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清
是我证明我爱你.

i wanted you.

2011-02-03T09:00:00.000-08:00

Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me I am sorry.

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I am sorry .

I'm so sorry baby but
I've got to pack up and leave but
I'll always remember how we came close to be
And what I wanted to be
I wanted you baby

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you.

Sorry that i loved you.

2011-02-02T09:42:00.000-08:00

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love made us blind
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time

For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I’m So sorry for...

Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time

Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you.

’m so Sorry that i loved you

not anymore.

2011-01-31T12:44:00.000-08:00

This is dedicated to
This, this, this is dedicated to
Mmm, well, if your feeling like I'm feeling
Then this is dedicated to you

Well, I've been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bother me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories

The stories 'bout them other girls
'Bout this one and that one and those three
So when I ask a simple question
(Where were you last night?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

Mmm, no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best
'Cause I'm giving my best

A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies
'Cause he took me to the movies
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before
Then right where you are just get up

Somebody say I don't want it anymore
I don't want it anymore
Somebody say I don't want it anymore
I don't want it anymore

'Cause I've dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that'll treat me right

Somebody say I don't want it anymore
I don't want it anymore
Somebody say, I don't want it anymore
I don't want it anymore

Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I don't want it anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore. ♥

Not Anymore. ♥

Now the time has come to leave you.

2011-01-30T23:17:00.000-08:00

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go. ♥

So KISS me and SMILE for me. Tell me that you'll WAIT for me. HOLD me like you'll never let me go.♥

if . . . ♥

2011-01-28T12:16:00.000-08:00

If I were to go, if I were to get closer to you,
I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage.

If you were to go, if you were to go away from me,
i dont know how to send you away,
It is scary to figure out how to let you go.

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

If you were to come, if you come closer to me,
What would i do? I really don’t know what to do. ♥

Because i'm like a fool, Even though i know looking is all i can do. ♥

Just For a Moment.

2011-01-28T11:03:00.000-08:00

Another state, another city got me tired out
Flashing lights of cameras flickerin as people shout It's not enough to hear my baby's voice on the phone
Cause the only fan I care about is back home alone
They tellin me that I got plenty o' time for a relationship
Told me to wait on it
Cause ever since the day you came in my life
You were my favorite, dont know what to make of it
Lookin through photos of us in my hotel room
After a couple shows you know I'll be back soon So many sleepless nights,
tossing, turning alone aint right
you know im impatiently yearnin that

Travelin around the world without you
Has got me thinkin about the day I found you
I'd climb the highest mountaintops to sing your name
swim to the ocean floor, just so i can see your face
If they only knew what I'm willin to give
to kiss my baby's lips
I aint fakin it And everytime they add more time on the road
I be hatin it
I'm just not sayin it
I almost left this life but you wouldnt let me
Cause you knew that music's something that made me happy So this one's for you
Every word that I sing is true I'll be there beside you before you know it.

Just for a moment, can we escape?
Just for a moment, we'll find a common place
it aint easy, to stay away from you
I just gotta say, but Just for a moment, this is our song.
This is a moment, where you and I belong.
I've been waiting, I know you're waiting
No need to say it, so close your eyes
Just for a moment. ♥

Scared to say Goodbye, cause what's after that? i dont know. ♥

I'll back off so you can live. ♥

2011-01-27T11:11:00.000-08:00

Say it directly looking at me,
Say it looking into my eyes.
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
I know. You probably got a lady.
I know. You probably got sick of me.
even though the tears are rushing to me.

Sorry My Sweety
Your lips that told me that you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you
The words don't go out
And you are already moving far apart

I know, You will forget me.
I know, I will really hate you.
Even though you know everything.

You, The reason i lived.
You were all i wanted.
It was me who only looked at you.
Why are you leaving?
Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this,
Why did you love me in the first
place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met.
I still remember it.
The promise you made to me,
That you will only care for me,
That you will only protect me,
That you will only love me.
I believed your lies,
I believed it.

Did you really love me?
No.
I'll forget so you can live better.

I'll back off so you can live.
That is all i can say.
I'll forget you so you can live better.
I'll back off so you can live.
So that you will be happy without me.
The Love you tossed away,
You can take it.
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all.
Don't even say you are sorry.
Don't worry about me. ♥

People cry not because love ends, but because it still continues…

even if it’s over. ♥

i Pray to know where is the love .

2011-01-27T10:14:00.000-08:00

What's wrong with the world mama?
People living like aint got no mamas
I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma
Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin
In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And if you hatin you're bound to get irate
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
You gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

It just ain't the same all ways have changed
New days are strange is the world the insane?
If love and peace so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations dropping bombs
Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
With ongoing suffering
As the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving really strong?
So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
With this world that we living in
People keep on giving in
Makin wrong decisions
Only visions of them livin and
Not respecting each other
Deny thy brother
The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover
The truth is kept secret
Swept under the rug
If you never know truth
Then you never know love
Where's the love y'all?
I don't know.

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm getting older y'all people get colder
Most of us only care about money makin
Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema
Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under
I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found.

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father father father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?

and i pray . . .

I just can't sleep tonight,
knowing that things ain't right.
It's in the papers, it's on the TV,
it's everywhere that i go.
Children are crying, soldiers are dying,
some people don't have a home.

i lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight
Am I a sinner? Cause half my dinner,
Is still there on my plate.
i got a vision, to make a difference,
and it's starting today.

But i know there's sunshine behind that rain,
I know there's good times behind that pain
Can you tell me how i can make a change? Heaven tell me i can make a change.

i pray for the broken-hearted,
i pray for the life not started.
i pray for all the ones not breathing,
i pray for all the souls in need.
i pray, can you give em one today?

I close my eyes, and i can see a Better day,
I close my eyes and Pray. ♥

Tonight's the Countdown, till the day we're not around.

2011-01-26T11:11:00.000-08:00

My heart is running on empty.
One more day and then we go.
Yeah, the time goes on now.
Don't ask me how, i don't know.
We'll be home tomorrow,
But a thousand miles too far away.
Say you won't forget and i'll be okay. :)

At least tonight,
It's just you and me and honestly.
That's everything i need.

Tonight's the countdown
'Till the day we're not around.
And you're gone,
And we're on with our lives.

The days turn to hours,
And it's just a moment before they go.
i'm scared to say goodbye cause
What's after that,
i don't know.
But how's the years past us,
If we lose track or lose the fight,
i will search forever to find the way back to you tonight.

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
Is this over?
Don't want an ending
In one day
No way you'll be mine. ♥

Don’t you ever kind of wish that the world would just stop?

That the band would pack up and the curtain would drop?

I’ve been stuck inside the same old nights, the same old days off,

And I need you now because I can’t get out of this. ♥

i try.

2011-01-25T11:28:00.000-08:00

Games, changes and fears.
When will they go from here?
When will they stop?
I believe that fate has brought us here.
And we should be together, but we're not.

I may appear to be free,
But I'm just a prisoner of your love.
I may seem alright and smile when you leave,
But my smiles are just a front.

Here is my confession.
May I be your possession.
Boy I need your touch,
Your love kisses and such.
With all my might I try,
But this I can't deny.

I play it off but I'm dreamin of you.
I'll keep it cool but I'm fiendin.
I try to say goodbye and I choke.
I try to walk away and I stumble.
Though I try to hide it it's clear,
My world crumbles when you are not near. ♥

my L.O.V.E is a Strawberry McShake that'll always be there to support & be there for you with no fail. ♥

YOU're PERFECT to me.

2011-01-24T09:03:00.000-08:00

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game.
It's enough! I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time .
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Pretty pretty please, Don't you ever ever feel like you're less than f*ckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing,
You're f*ckin' perfect to me. ♥

幸福の滋味 is having a cup of Hot Chocolate during the cold weather with a "Yo" on the cup. *wink. ♥

i Need You now.

2011-01-23T09:31:00.000-08:00

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause i can’t fight it any more.

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door.

Wishing You’d come sweeping in the way You did before.

And i wonder if i ever cross Your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, i’m all alone and i need You now.
Said i wouldn’t come but i lost all control and i need You now.
And i don’t know how i can do without, i just need You now. ♥

What if . .

2011-01-22T08:33:00.000-08:00

Dont Know what tomorrow brings,
But i'm still Hoping that You are the one for me.
What if i had You and What if You had me?
Whats the reason we cant fall in Love?

What if . .

But we cant, we cant tell the future,no.
But Thats just the beauty of the world we know.
So i'ma say . .
Baby . . WHAT IF . . ♥

Lost in time.

2010-12-29T02:16:00.000-08:00

Sometimes its just so hard to just face the fact and Let go.

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Going back to the memories.

The Last Chinese new year .

The last time i Fed her.

The Last Birthday 13th May 2010.

How i wished you were here even if you just wanted to scold me.

You always called him "Nicklat". :)

You once called him "ngai dik dok" (shorty) when he was little and thanks to Your taking care of, he is all grown up. :)

Grandmama loved to eat.

i Miss Your Smile and . . .

Laughter.

its been 3 months now and i still Miss You, Grandmama.

at least i still have Memories of You in my Heart. i Love You and always will. ♥

i remember what i wrote for Grandmama during May 2010 ( http://miss-ish.blogspot.com/2010/05/selfless.html ) but it was harder than i thought it would be.

graduation photos =D~

2010-12-21T02:59:00.000-08:00

Okie i have been saying.. graduation photos will be uploaded soon...
sorry it toook sooo long... . i finaly got them from katherine last week....

photos are in this link =D

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=315003&id=743801203

before going to schoool kitty came to my house first ^^

( we were busy taking photo that we lost track of time =x LOL.and went to schoool abit late =x )

jumping castle behind us ^^

kitty jumped so much.. she pass out xD. joke jokes. just tired =p

giant booobs =x . oh we saw a giant penis balloon too xD! LOL.. but coudlnt' take photo .. forgot why =x

giant slide =D

first time kitty use chopstick ;p

me ! hi =p ~

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oh and if wondering how i went in my VCE results.....
i went alright ~!
good or bad.. i never tell my results . =]
i've studied as much as i could....
i tried my very best already..
so there is nothing much i can do but wait for the university that i wan to get into to accept me...
^. ^~ will update when i do get in =]

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christmas is coming up !!! hehe.....
gonna be quite busy ....
will update soon =D!!

wishing everyone a

MERRY CHRISTMAS

love.

ms.grace

Philip Island

2010-12-06T05:24:00.000-08:00

To be Honest, i wasn't really excited about going to Philip Island. Because i was only going with my parents and this other family. ( family friends ) .just a road trip you know. the thing was my 2 brothers weren't going.
they don't go = boring. very used to having my brothers around. much more fun. plus it was me and Jisoo only. you know how boring is it when it is only 2 people? like we can't play cards or board games or something.
but thank God i brought my laptop to watch movies =] .
oh and i watched "F.R.I.E.N.D.S" on the way there and back ;p better than sleeping in the car ^^

1st Day.

We left the house in the evening. when we reached there it was already like 10pm - ish ? so coudln't do much. we watch this scary movie about tattoos and how it has a spirit that kills people or something like that and you see the spirit. oh man it was scary. so then Jisoo and I went to our rooms and watched " Social Network " . omgs. we both didn't really get whats the point of watching that movie =.= " ! ~ so boring. =x ( it just me. apparently other people said it was good . )

2nd Day.
woke up like 9 something. omgs. it was sooooo hot !!!!! ( so good for the beach )
was planning to go fishing. but then since it was too hot, decided not to. though our dad's went.
mums were having some " talk " and we were just watching " F.R.I.E.N.D.S " since yeh nothing we can do. we didn't know where the beach were.
We drove to town and ate lunch. Chicken something ~ .
To Be Honest, didn't like it. i so prefer fish and chips =x
fish and chips = THUMBS UP ^^
anyways, this place is like right in front of the beach.
so Jisoo and I went down to the beach and into the water, ( just up to our knees) cuz we had to sit in the car later and we didn't bring our towels =x
so yeh didn't get to swim.
the beach.. was SOO CLEAN...
i mean i used to hate the beach when i was small because it was dirty ( in malaysia ). but now... i LOVE THE BEACH ~
WATTER IS SO CLEAN.... THE SAND IS SO CLEAN...

Anyways.. went home and waited for it not to be soo hot so that we could walk to the beach which was closer to us. ( hoping our mum's would bring us since we didn't know where it was ) BUT ! we fell a sleep and mums were chatting away ~ so ended up waking up for dinner instead .

oh by the way... our dads saw a baby seal !!! apparently it was dying so Uncle gave it something to eat and and daddy kept on splashing water on it . got daddy to take few photos. it sooo cute. sorta ugly but hey ! first time sorta seeing a baby seal is cute ! =]

DINNER we had KOREAN BBQ =D~

After that we walked to the beach which was like 5 mins away . =D!
The scenery was just... amazing !!! so.. romantic ~ if only my bf was there.... it'll be soooo sweeet ~~
the sunset was just sooooo..... indescribable.. and walking along the beach ( actually in the water )
with the milky stars in the sky ~ it was just soo perfect if my bf was there !
for any couple to be there or with a group of friends. just so perfect!

loook! how good is it!

look how clear the water is =D!

3rd day

oh did i mention that the family we went with was a korean family ^.^

they had to go home early for something. so they left first.

me and my parents took our time.. packing -ish , cleaning the house. ( the house is my dad's friend's house ^^ )

and we drove around Philip Island a little . and sight see. wow.. i think i'm actualy growing up.( more mature )

used to think that it was freaking boring as.. don't know whats the point of sight seeing but now i'm loving the it =D~ just so beautiful!

hehe...

we saw a penguin mama and a baby too!!!( at this mountain thingy i don't know what it is called.)

it was like in the middle of the day ! i felt sooo sorry for it =x hiding in the hole.. =x

oh by the way.. we were driving right and we pass by this field which has cows . and i saw this cow humping another cow. LOL! and i coudln't stop laughing and i told my parents. DAMN IT WAS AWKWARD. =x never ever gonna tell my parents if something happens like that ever again LOL..

OH OH .. and we stop by this CHOCOLATE FACTORY.

so much for a chocolate factory. i was soo excited to go in. but when i went it.. dude.. it was just like a normal chocolate shop. and another part of it was there is this indian caffe.. selling like chocolate and coffees drinks AND CURRY.

seirously chocoalte and coffee DOES NOT go with curry =.="

anyways .. yeh.... dissapointed.

i was expecting like u can actualy see them make chocolate =x haiz ~ T___T

anyways.. thats all about philip island.

hoping i can go there again .. and this time actually spend ONE WHOLE DAY AT THE BEACH =]

can see more photos here ^^

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=311365&id=743801203

This is made out of chocolate. EVEN THE SAND !!! =x

chocolate drink

the sand and sea soo clean .the sea is so blue ~

i know Ms. Alena would LOOOVEEE it xD

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oh by the way. I FINALY GOT MY Ls!!! =x

a little late. yes ~ but oh well...

i did the test last week and i got 100%

the reason why i'm so hapiie cuz i beat my whole family . xD~

they only got 80+ and 90 + ;p

waiting to get my lisence in 10 days =D ^^ ~

but seiorusly i don't want to drive =x T___T

Still trying to find a job by the way. i'll look again like in january. since December gonna be a little busy =x
=]

woo woo ! and results are coming out NEXT MONDAY the 13th !!! =x T___T i'm soooo scared!!

will update sooon =D!

love.

ms.grace

Spiders ~ =x

2010-11-24T05:23:00.000-08:00

Part One.
Showering half way.... i looked up...
FUDGE-NESS!!!!!!
Freaking spider on the right top corner..
thanks to it.. i couldn't enjoy my shower .
i had to keep constantly telling myself,

" stay clam .. stay calm.. it not gonna eat you or jump on you "

and i had my eye fix on it too... didn't want to lose sight of it =x

Part Two

Went to kitty's house... we watch 2 movies...

"Blood Diamond " and "Spirited Away "( watched spirited away like 3 times =x its a Japanese cartoon. it is really cute )

anyways.... we had lovely fruits to eat and lovely dinner made by her mummy. =D~ ( sadly i forgot to take photo of dinner. and desert =( ~ and she even packed some for miii but i forgot to take home T_T )

anyways.. she was telling my about her trip with friends to Lake Entrance last year. how she heard a scratchy sound in the middle of the night for 10 minutes. when she got up... it stop. the next night.. she sad :: " whoever made that scratchy sound last night was not funny. and it was very annoying. "

apparently no one knows about it =x ~ freaking scary. also the fact that they have been watching horror movie at nights when they were there.

she also told me some other horror stuff... =.= "

When i was about to leave...kitty opened the door and SCREAM !

i'm like.. FUDGE WHAT WHAT HAPPEN?!?!! ( scare the shit out of me =x )

and it was just a freaking SPIDER. ( stupid spider )

( i swear.. if Derek was there.. he wouldn't stop laughing at us how frighten we were. lol !=p =x )

=.= " !!!

PART 3

when i went toilet.... and was about to flushed... i realize there's a spider next to my freaking left foot ! i'm like.. FUUUDGEEEE!!!!!

constantly telling myself again..

" dun scream.. daddy mummy sleeping.. stay calm ... it not moving.. it wouldn't bite you... stay calm.. "

quickly took BUNCH of tissue and SMASHED it =x flushed it down the toilet =x

oh god..... why is there soooo many spiders?!?!?!?!? T______T

i hate spiders ~!! freaking disgusting.

actually i was about to put up a picture of a spider..

but erm.. when i google it.... oh .. man... it .. is.... disgusting ... seirously =x ... .. why did God created spiders T__T ~

hehe.. anyways.. thats all for today =] ~ hearts ~

love.

ms.grace

Driving?? my Ls??

2010-11-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

16 years old and u're allowed to take your Ls.
since i was 16 ... until now.. every single holiday i've been saying...

" okie i'll do it this holiday "

( holiday over, and never done it)

" okie i'll do it next holiday . "

over and over for 3 years ( lol.... i'm not the only one okie =x )
anyways... since i finish VCE.. my parents have been insisting for me to get my Ls.

parents : " when are you going to get your Ls? .. will teach you to drive straight away=D ^. ^~ "

( they made it sound so fun and interesting, thinking if they say " teach you to drive straight away " will make mii wanna get my Ls but... )

mii : " i DONT WANT to drive.. ! i'm SCARE ~ ~! "

( LOL !!! i don't know.. i always wanted to drive, but now when i can actually get the chance.. i'm scared =x )

parents : " it'll be very fun. once you start u'll enjoy it "

( i guess... but i'm still scared. that time WILL COME ONE DAY ~ )

parents : " ask mark to play those car racing games . like actually holding the steering wheel. "
mii : " mum .. dad... i always play those games.. i love it... "
parents :: " oh..... " ( silence )

games and reality is different...
driving in a game.. racing.. i don't have to worry about CRASHING.. and HOW FAST i can drive. =D
LOL =p
but hey...it is actually MORE MORE FUN and LESS WORRRY

anyways.. i'll still get my Ls soon. just so that i can have an ID =] LOL~
and so that my parents wouldn't nag about it anymore =p
willl update when i get my Ls x]

love.

ms.grace